this isn't personal, its only against the topic

I want this to be beautiful. 

it's not, 

I want to scream 

till I am coughing blood. 

please don't tell me 

it's my body,

not when your using it to slaughter. 

I have heard of genocide. 

I wish we all could breathe it in,

 

the ashes of those murdered every day. 

genocide is happening right now 

across America, 

a child, I guess, is not a race 

it's to vague of a description. 

fuck .................. 

fuck you. 

I am on the verge of tears. 

I want it to rain, 

right now 

in my fucking house. 

I wish my tears were red. 

don't tell me about your body. 

don't tell me I cannot understand. 

don't scream for equality, 

and tell me I know nothing. 

I don't think I was planned. 

I am glad to be alive, 

that my breath is important to someone;

I wish I was fucking dead right now. 

my heart is heavy, 

and it wont leave my body, 

I want it to go. 

you want to control something, 

control your vagina, 

control your penis, 

control your fucking actions. 

you want to kill something, 

kill yourself.